Oftentimes in life I feel insignificant. Not necessarily unloved, but I feel like compared to so many others I have nothing to contribute or offer. I know God loves me, but I guess I can’t fathom that I actually have a place in his family if that makes sense. I felt so much more significant…
Read moreThoughts with Koko 7/9/20-the fight persists
Being a foster parent is the hardest thing I have ever done. I’ve always had the belief that I could do anything short term. I slept on a hard floor in India for a whole summer when the temperatures were well over 110 F during the day. I once was lost in a village in…
Read moreThe Beautiful Struggle
Foster care has given me anxiety lately. I know that sounds really stupid and incredibly selfish. We just won a huge battle and adopted our son…shouldn’t that be enough? Yes, absolutely. I still catch myself being amazed that he really is our son. He is mine. No one can take him from me. He isn’t…
Read moreUs vs. Them
Us. vs Them. The ultimate dilemma in foster care and adoption. Advocating for both my son and my foster child’s best interest can be so tricky. Do you ever want to say, “Forget this advocacy nonsense, I’m going to FIGHT for what is right!”? Oh, it would be so easy to push ahead and not…
Read moreHope-A Poem (kinda…)
When the pain seems to suffocate you and leave you no place to breathe, He is there. When the agony of loss quiets your voice and tempers everything with darkness, He is there. When things seem to make no sense and keep spiraling out of control, He is there. When the mundane life things echo…
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